I don't know why, but I hate being a hypocrite. Telling people that everyone has a worth, you should never give up, keep moving forward etc. I know others who are hypocrites in the same manner. I know, cause a few admitted it. I know I'm helping others, but it just sucks that I don't believe it myself. My friend skips meals and I tell her not to. Even though, I myself skip lunch and dinner most of the time. I guess every caring teenager (aka non-bitches) is a hypocrite. I'm not saying I'm caring but yeah...I'm a hypocrite. I want people to live their whole life, even though I think about ending mine every night. I relieve some of these depressjng thoughts by posting depredding pics on Google+. I'm so damn complicated. People would respond to most of those pics saying "Hugs" or "Everything will be okay" or even (this is my least favorite response) "Tell me what's wrong. I can help." I can't tell you what's wrong. I just can't. And most of the time I act crazy and food-driven online. In reality, I do act crazy when I feel super fucked up and I don't eat much. My life is just filled with internal ironies...